Strap yourselves in cinephiles of 4381 because this is a hard one to answer.
I recently had a classmate of mine told me that it is “refreshing” how much I know and love film. I told this classmate simply that I just love cinema with all my heart, and I have devoted so much time learning more and more about the cinematic language. You see my friends I love it all, Noir, German Expressionism, Italian Neorealism, French New Wave, Russian New Wave, Hong Kong New Wave, Taiwanese New Wave, and so much more. The biggest question prevails though, why do I love movies so much?
I am not a believer in escapism because quite frankly art should not be used to ignore the ugliness of our lives at times. We should not put aside our troubles for 2 to 3 hours to simply enjoy something. Art to me is a learning tool and it always has been. Not a lot of the films I love are supposed to make you feel good and it is quite famous to me that I only like depressing films. My view of art as a learning tool is why I love Come and See (1985) so much. I am not entertained one bit by it at all and if you are you and I need to have a conversation for sure, but throughout all of the brutality and harrowing nature of the film, there is a lot to learn about war and humanity.
Cinema is a lot like life, beautiful, ugly, exploitative, supportive, happy, depressing, but at the end of the day, it is art. Cinema is a lot of different things and that is why I love it so much. I feel less dead inside when watching films but then the films I watch make me feel dead inside. Cinema helps wipes the tears but then proceeds to make me cry even harder. Cinema loves and cares for us in a way that only art can do. That is why I love cinema, and that is why I think everyone can find something to love about it too.
“All art is autobiographical; the pearl is the oyster’s autobiography.” – Federico Fellini